Running to stand still

[kerravonsen]

Ah, I'm so tired... mentally exhausted, maybe. Thinking of the endless list of things to do that I keep on adding more to. I feel like the Red Queen.

For example... I wanted to write a daily-bible-reading script. But I wanted to do it properly -- which sidetracked me to (a) investigating Perl module skeleton creators, writing a subclass module for one, discovering another, better one, and writing a plugin module for it and (b) writing a "proper" perl module for the scrappy scripts I'd been using peacemeal to help with my perl module writing (originally inspired by the irritating task of updating the version-ids in most of the test files for txt2html). And the plugin I wrote isn't sufficient, so maybe I should write another one... and I'm no closer to writing the daily-bible-reading script which sparked all this frenzy.

You'll all be thinking I'm a P next.

(sigh)

I'm never going to finish anything at this rate!

Comments

[cdybedahl.livejournal.com]

Module skeleton creators? what do they do that h2xs don't?

[kerravonsen]

h2xs is rusty and clanky. It doesn't support Module::Build and it doesn't enable one to customize the files, and it doesn't put licence stuff in... so I end up having to replace half the files it creates with other stuff anyway.

[watervole.livejournal.com]

REad a page a day and use a paper bookmark.

The more serious question is why you feel the need to create an impossible workload for yourself. There has to be some underlying reason. Are you seeing enough people socially outside work? (face to face, not on the net)

[kerravonsen]

The more serious question is why you feel the need to create an impossible workload for yourself. There has to be some underlying reason.

Good question. Pity I don't have a clue as to the answer, apart from just that I'm a perfectionist...

Are you seeing enough people socially outside work? (face to face, not on the net)
Um, I don't see how making myself more busy would help with how busy I am... How much is "enough"? It varies from person to person. Too much socializing for me is anti-refreshing. Well, depending on the people, anyway. I've been doing a lot of socializing lately because we've been doing a lot of stuff with my brother-from-Indonesia and his family, which has been fun, so I don't think you could say I haven't been socializing enough.

[mistraltoes.livejournal.com]

Hm. With your high N, you might not like this suggestion, but how about taking a weekend off from 'doing' and spend some time 'experiencing'? Go out and commune with nature, visit friends, lie about and listen to music, things like that - but don't plan every minute; in fact, plan to accomplish nothing, only to pay attention to everything. In other words, be S for a couple of days; it's like a mini-vacation from yourself.

[kerravonsen]

Hmmm. Maybe. Of course, this weekend is gone, and next weekend is a whole week away...
I think the only way I could force myself not to *do* things would be if I were away from home, which, unless I just go and stay at my parents, would entail hassle and planning... mind you, if I visited my friends in the country, that would really be a get-away-from-it-all thing...